Well after the high of getting this blog set up last week I think I am starting to hit the low that is part of any journey. I have spent countless hours of the last few days setting up all the technology and trying to get my head around the requirements for the course (as well as the technology) of which this blog is a part of. But after reading what some of my peers are up to I am feeling really lost and behind. As a student I am feeling bewildered, confused, lost, unprepared and totally out of my comfort zone. These feelings don’t sit well with me as a person, I usually like to have a knowledge and understanding of what i am doing, feel prepared and in control and while I don’t mind a challenge I usually don’t challenge myself so much that I don’t know what I need to do to meet the challenge.
As a teacher and from my previous learning I know that all these feelings can contribute to significant and transformative learning, which I am hoping will occur in this course. As a student this knowledge is currently not giving me much comfort, my thoughts can’t progress to what I can learn because I am so caught up in what do I need to do to get through this subject.
It is quite a coincidence that I feel like this today. It is day one of semester for the students that I teach. I am hoping they don’t feel the way I am currently feeling but I am not so sure that they know what they need to do to complete the course, how to navigate the course page and be able to then focus on the actual learning. Perhaps this is part of the learning? As a teacher this has provided me with some insight to how my students may feel and therefore perhaps this is valuable learning for me, perhaps I need to be aware of these feelings and be mindful of them when designing the courses I run so that my students are provided with enough to challenge them without taking the focus away from the learning that should occur.
Does it matter what learning occurs as long as some learning occurs? In my case probably as the courses lead to a formal qualification but in other areas who knows.